The not so happy part of our story

Before we found out I was pregnant, me and snoekie's dad hadn't been together for long.  We didn't have the best relationship and was always fighting.  I have a very strong personality and I can get very overpowering!  Yet when we found out, he promised to stand by me, to help me and to love his child.

He was exited and eager, he told his friends and family with pride.  He was always going on about our BOY, yet when he spoke he always said she.  There was no question that if t was a boy he would get daddys name!

We still had our fights but he was good to me, and cared for our baby.  There was never any talk about marriage but I wanted him in our baby's life.

Then suddenly things changes .... He went out with his friends, started skipping class, he just change!  When I was about 6 months pregnant I found out he was cheating on me.  Wow I was so shocked, why not just dump me and then go jol!  In anger I told him I never wanted to see him again, and that was it, I never did.  After the incident he told others that I was lying and that it wasn't his child.  I tried talking to him, hoping we could be friends for the sake of the baby, but no he didn't want anything to do with us!

Sometimes I wonder if he thinks about her?!

After snoekie's birth I send a message to his mother.  Immediatly they wanted a test proving that he is the dad and I just decided to let it go.

I did my part by letting them know, I won't drag myself or my baby through angry fights and court dates and and and

If someday he should make contact, I will never keep away from his daughter.  I kinda get why he left.  A baby and family is a big responsibility!  He is young and has his whole life ahead of him.

It was after all my decision to keep her.