I was almost 3 months pregnant when I found out. Wow what a shock. I am away from home, in Potchefstroom studying to be a teacher. With only one semester behind me, this really was the last thing I expected. The nurse at the clinic explained all our options. Her dad cried hysterically, but I just sat there. Tryng to take everything in I don't think I was really listening.
Sitting there that day, I think both of them thought I would go for an abortion. Was that even an option for me? I can't say that it never crossed my mind. But how would I live with myself, knowing that I killed my baby.
All my friend tried to convince me to get an abortion, they would miss the wild and crazy me to much. Besides Carina Kriel a responsible mom? That was the joke of the day.
We were referred to the campus councilor to discuss our option once again. I walked into that office that day, praying that she would tell me what to do. I hate that I had all these options, and no one to tell met what to do. She didn't say anything new or convincing and it seemed like we were wasting our time. Then she walked to her drawer and took out a model of a baby the same age as the baby inside me. She put it down on the table and carried on talking. I wasn't listening at all, I was staring at the baby, lying there small and helpless. It already had a face, small hands and feet. Most important it had a heartbeat!
I made the decision to keep my baby, no matter what. Everyone was quite shocked, but it soon turned into excitement. Her dad was happy about my decision and couldn't wait to think of names. But while he and my best friend were thinking of names, genders and personalities, I had to think of a way to tell my parents .....
Although they were disappointed they accepted the situation with love. It wasn't easy telling them and sisters. But when it was done our journey started.
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